wlscbone | Dec. 5th, 2002

Ever feel like life is moving in slow motion and fast forward at the same time? Days seem to go so slow individually then magically it's Friday again. It's weird. Having a snow day today helped. It was so nice not having to go to school, though it means I have to teach "B" day tomorrow. What a crappy way to end a work week. Sometimes I long for the monotony of the tax office. At least there, I didn't go home wondering how I could have done a better job filing liens or stamping the books.

Wish we would have gotten all snow instead of the snow/sleet mixture. It's not as pretty. There is something absolutely beautiful about untouched snow. So pure and clean. It's very peaceful. Reminds me Christmas is almost here.

I have to go Christmas shopping. Very soon. I can't procrastinate much longer. I don't want to go because i hav plenty of money to spend this year. Ok, follow me on this one- i really shouldn't spend money, but it's there, and I am afraid I will spend too much. I am thinking of setting a budget, taking out that much money from the bank and then quitting when it's gone. I love Christmas, its my favorite holiday. I love the spirit, I love giving gifts, I love how everything seems more cheerful and pretty. As I grow older, I find myself wishing more and more for that special someone to share it with, to be sitting in front of the Christmas tree with all the twinkling lights, our bodies nestled together. It would be so comfortable that no words would be needed to communicate with each other just a peacefulness. It won't ever happen, but that is my lot in life. I have decided not to fight it.

I was looking through some stuff I made when I was little, like Kindergarten, 1st, 2nd, and 3rd grade. I realized I have always been obsessed with rainbows. And I always drew them without the indigo in them. I think it had to do with my obsession with things being matched and complete, but who knows. I also helped my sister pack up things to take to her new house, and we found some old diaries and love notes of hers. She said "I can't beleive how obsessed over boys I was then. Of course, every girl is obsessed with boys at that age." And I opened my mouth, then closed it because to try to correct her would opened too big a can a worms that I couldn't deal with right now.

on another note- the specs for the new laptop-
DELL
Mobile Pentium®4 processor,1.7GHz-M,15.0 SXGA+ Floppy Drive Floppy Drive
Norton Antivirus® Norton Antivirus® 2002, 90-day introductory offer
Digital Music Dell Jukebox powered by MusicMatch
Limited Warranty, Services and Support Options 1 Year Limited Warranty plus 1 Year Mail-In Service
Bundled Software Microsoft® Works Suite 2002
Operating System Microsoft® Windows® XP Home
Memory 512MB DDR SDRAM,200MHz,2 DIMM
Primary Battery 59 WHr Lithium-Ion Battery
Hard Drive 30GB Ultra ATA Hard Drive
Network Adapter Integrated Network Card
Fixed CD/DVD Drives 24X CD-RW/DVD Combo Drive with Roxio's Easy CD Creator®
Digital Photography Dell Picture Studio, Image Expert Standard
Modem Internal 56k Modem
Video Card 16MB DDR 4X AGP NVIDIA GeForce2 Go™Vid

YAY- can't wait to get it.

Well, its a school night- somebody pray i will have a 2 hr delay in the morning. I should go to bed though. gnight.