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Home again, Home again
Jan. 2nd, 2003 11:19 pmWhen I left St C to day,I told Jason- I am looking forward to when we don't have to do this anymore. It hurts so much to leave them. I know my feelings for dave and jason sound strange, but its how i feel. I love them as much as; if not more than my biological family. I feel so useless living in Oak Hill. I worry that something will happen, and I won't be able to reach oneof them in time.
I talked with one of High School friends- you know, I realize i haven't called in her in a long time, but is that any reason to say to someone you used to be best friends with- "I odn't have any friends here." That made me sad. *sigh*
oh, oh,
This morning as we were getting ready to go to eat "brunch" before we all left for our respective homes, Jason said -"Michelle, when do you have to be back in Oak Hill?" I said "6:30, why?" He said "Because I thought, if you wanted to, you could come to Old Navy with me after we eat." I know it sounds kinda silly, but that made my day. For a very long period in my life, no one wanted me around- I was tolerated. I feel wanted when people do things like Jason did this morning. I love jason!
Have I mentioned, I don't want to go back to school? and that i hate my job? I had to go back to the school to run the clock for a basketball game tonight. I had kids asking me about their grades and stuff. YUK. The prncipal said "Monday will come way too fast." I said "Yes, very much so." I feel guilty for hating my job. I should love it, and I don't. It makes me incredibly sad that I hate what I would have considered my dream job, 3 years ago.
Well, its bedtime. nightnight
I talked with one of High School friends- you know, I realize i haven't called in her in a long time, but is that any reason to say to someone you used to be best friends with- "I odn't have any friends here." That made me sad. *sigh*
oh, oh,
HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY
This morning as we were getting ready to go to eat "brunch" before we all left for our respective homes, Jason said -"Michelle, when do you have to be back in Oak Hill?" I said "6:30, why?" He said "Because I thought, if you wanted to, you could come to Old Navy with me after we eat." I know it sounds kinda silly, but that made my day. For a very long period in my life, no one wanted me around- I was tolerated. I feel wanted when people do things like Jason did this morning. I love jason!
Have I mentioned, I don't want to go back to school? and that i hate my job? I had to go back to the school to run the clock for a basketball game tonight. I had kids asking me about their grades and stuff. YUK. The prncipal said "Monday will come way too fast." I said "Yes, very much so." I feel guilty for hating my job. I should love it, and I don't. It makes me incredibly sad that I hate what I would have considered my dream job, 3 years ago.
Well, its bedtime. nightnight
