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a response
May. 11th, 2003 07:34 pmIn response to James's post, which I my response was too long so I made it a post of my very own.
It still kind of strikes me when I read a post from someone who outwardly seems so different from me, but it sounds like I could have written it because it's so close to some of my thoughts and feelings. I guess i spent so much of my life feeling different from everyone else that I have a hard time believing there are people out there like me.
There is no way i could make this coherent so here are the all the pieces
-Being "home"- My parents flipped out the first time I called West Lib home- I guess it didn't occur to them that I wouldn't always live here.
- Being good- I am "good" simply because I want to be. It is selfish in a roundabout way- It makes me feel good to be kind and considerate to others. Nothing brings a smile to my face or lifts my spirits faster than to see someone else happy. I don't like to see other people hurting or suffering.
-Religion- hmmmmmmmmmm, how to say this without sounding like a biblethumper. I think people too often confuse God with religion. Not that that is what you are doing, james, but I am just stating a fact. I have been disillusioned with organized religion for a long time. I think its corrupt, and they have lost sight of the reason it should have been put into place. This doesn't stop me from believing in God or in the major tenets of the bible. I believe in the Creation theory because I cannot fathom this wonderful world just happening. That the billions of components could just happen together to make the abundance of life on this planet. OK, I could write a novel on my thoughts about this, but thats not necessary.
Nietzsche-interesting philosopher. I always found it very interesting that he included Jesus on his list of Übermensch.
Worry- I worry all the time. About stupid stuff, and important stuff. "I'm worried that I'll disappoint people, that I'm getting too cynical as time goes on, that I'll stop caring about others."
That really close to home. That is one reason I am leaving MHHS- I have stopped caring about the kids. And you can yell at me and be angry with me for a lifetime, it doesn't bother me- be disappointed in me- I can't handle that. I hate Neil Randolph with a passion, but the night in my lesson- he said "I give up, I can't do anything more with you" real quiet- I bawled for hours.
Long story, longer- Thanks James for making me think.
It still kind of strikes me when I read a post from someone who outwardly seems so different from me, but it sounds like I could have written it because it's so close to some of my thoughts and feelings. I guess i spent so much of my life feeling different from everyone else that I have a hard time believing there are people out there like me.
There is no way i could make this coherent so here are the all the pieces
-Being "home"- My parents flipped out the first time I called West Lib home- I guess it didn't occur to them that I wouldn't always live here.
- Being good- I am "good" simply because I want to be. It is selfish in a roundabout way- It makes me feel good to be kind and considerate to others. Nothing brings a smile to my face or lifts my spirits faster than to see someone else happy. I don't like to see other people hurting or suffering.
-Religion- hmmmmmmmmmm, how to say this without sounding like a biblethumper. I think people too often confuse God with religion. Not that that is what you are doing, james, but I am just stating a fact. I have been disillusioned with organized religion for a long time. I think its corrupt, and they have lost sight of the reason it should have been put into place. This doesn't stop me from believing in God or in the major tenets of the bible. I believe in the Creation theory because I cannot fathom this wonderful world just happening. That the billions of components could just happen together to make the abundance of life on this planet. OK, I could write a novel on my thoughts about this, but thats not necessary.
Nietzsche-interesting philosopher. I always found it very interesting that he included Jesus on his list of Übermensch.
Worry- I worry all the time. About stupid stuff, and important stuff. "I'm worried that I'll disappoint people, that I'm getting too cynical as time goes on, that I'll stop caring about others."
That really close to home. That is one reason I am leaving MHHS- I have stopped caring about the kids. And you can yell at me and be angry with me for a lifetime, it doesn't bother me- be disappointed in me- I can't handle that. I hate Neil Randolph with a passion, but the night in my lesson- he said "I give up, I can't do anything more with you" real quiet- I bawled for hours.
Long story, longer- Thanks James for making me think.
