![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
it occured to me that i haven't updated in a while.
friday night was ok. i could get used to sleeping in her bed. i don't know how any one person sleeps under that many covers though. i threw the whole lot off of me at one point. Griffin cracks me up.. I haven't figured out if he quite likes me or not. i think he is most likely trying to understand my role in his "pack." It has only been him and Jennifer for quite a while. Nothing really happened, which is ok, if not disconcerting. Of course, I am probably sending out my own batch of mixed signals. overall i am surprising myself with the relative calmness I am feeling over the whole thing. I am having my paranoid moments (I wouldn't be me if I didn't), but I am rather secure in the knowledge that this is leading somewhere.
I do wonder sometimes how I can be of 2 (or more) different minds at once. For instance- Part of me was excited to notice Jennifer is introducing me as her friend, not as her friend from work. Another part is so impatient- I want the whole relationship now- I don't want to wait for things to go slow. And still another part is disappointed, that this story is far from the fairy tale/ knight in shining armor stories from my childhood.
i think that last statement would best be qualified as I can't figure out whether i would rather be the damsel in distress or the knight. I love to take of people, and protect them and guard them from harm, but I need someone willing to be my rock sometimes too.
i invited Jennifer to my place next week for Dinner. I am making Lasagna. I might go for a fancy salad, and I don't know about desset. She doesn't care for chocolate (silly woman) so I'll have to investigate. i am debating whether I want this to be this whole romantic thing or not. I am also debating the beverage. Do I try for wine? or do I keep it simple. decisions, decisions. She might bring Griffin and stay the night. I do not know that yet though.
my other immediate concern is Christmas. what in the world do I get her? I could go completely overboard if I let myself. Every Christmas, I get a tiny twinge of sadness when I walk though the stores seeing all the things I would want to get that special someone in my life. Now I kind of have someone to buy for, and it takes alot of will power to resist the impulse to do that. I have several ideas, and I just need to figure out which is the best choice. I also need to get Griffin something. He is a cute dog.
Well, I willl write some other time about nonJennifer stuff.
friday night was ok. i could get used to sleeping in her bed. i don't know how any one person sleeps under that many covers though. i threw the whole lot off of me at one point. Griffin cracks me up.. I haven't figured out if he quite likes me or not. i think he is most likely trying to understand my role in his "pack." It has only been him and Jennifer for quite a while. Nothing really happened, which is ok, if not disconcerting. Of course, I am probably sending out my own batch of mixed signals. overall i am surprising myself with the relative calmness I am feeling over the whole thing. I am having my paranoid moments (I wouldn't be me if I didn't), but I am rather secure in the knowledge that this is leading somewhere.
I do wonder sometimes how I can be of 2 (or more) different minds at once. For instance- Part of me was excited to notice Jennifer is introducing me as her friend, not as her friend from work. Another part is so impatient- I want the whole relationship now- I don't want to wait for things to go slow. And still another part is disappointed, that this story is far from the fairy tale/ knight in shining armor stories from my childhood.
i think that last statement would best be qualified as I can't figure out whether i would rather be the damsel in distress or the knight. I love to take of people, and protect them and guard them from harm, but I need someone willing to be my rock sometimes too.
i invited Jennifer to my place next week for Dinner. I am making Lasagna. I might go for a fancy salad, and I don't know about desset. She doesn't care for chocolate (silly woman) so I'll have to investigate. i am debating whether I want this to be this whole romantic thing or not. I am also debating the beverage. Do I try for wine? or do I keep it simple. decisions, decisions. She might bring Griffin and stay the night. I do not know that yet though.
my other immediate concern is Christmas. what in the world do I get her? I could go completely overboard if I let myself. Every Christmas, I get a tiny twinge of sadness when I walk though the stores seeing all the things I would want to get that special someone in my life. Now I kind of have someone to buy for, and it takes alot of will power to resist the impulse to do that. I have several ideas, and I just need to figure out which is the best choice. I also need to get Griffin something. He is a cute dog.
Well, I willl write some other time about nonJennifer stuff.
