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one day more
Mar. 4th, 2004 07:47 pmman, i thought i updated yesterday.
it's almost survivor time. yay.
i am sooooo looking forward to visiting dave. it will be awesome to be near someone and not feel like i need to apologize for my existence. my davey will make things better. for a weekend at least.
i wish it was as easy as other people think it is. maybe it is for them, but it's not for me. i can count on one hand the times i've given up or quit something in my lifetime, and each one of them was a heart wenching battle of wills that took a long time to resolve.
in fact, there are times when i regret those decisions- replaying long ago events to figure out whether i could have done something different so the outcome could have been more... satisfactory.
oh well, in 24 hours i'll be in the hotel room- probably getting out of the shower. woohoo.
it's almost survivor time. yay.
i am sooooo looking forward to visiting dave. it will be awesome to be near someone and not feel like i need to apologize for my existence. my davey will make things better. for a weekend at least.
i wish it was as easy as other people think it is. maybe it is for them, but it's not for me. i can count on one hand the times i've given up or quit something in my lifetime, and each one of them was a heart wenching battle of wills that took a long time to resolve.
in fact, there are times when i regret those decisions- replaying long ago events to figure out whether i could have done something different so the outcome could have been more... satisfactory.
oh well, in 24 hours i'll be in the hotel room- probably getting out of the shower. woohoo.
