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another day
Apr. 5th, 2004 11:20 pmi'm not going into today. it sucked eggs.
though i just did something quite scary, and i hope it was the right thing.
why do people push away those who care about them the most?
(and for those who are paying attention, this is a general statement as well as specific.)
i need to flip my mattress.
i made cookies to take to work. not much in this world can't be fixed with sugar and chocolate.
i miss my sister. i wish i could be honest with her.
i miss kerri and nathan and nick and becca and that whole crowd.
life was so much simpler then- i remember one night, kerri and i went to nathan's house. it was during the summer, and our collective curfew was 11pm, though it wasn't set in stone. we had watched a movie, and we were playing mariokart on his ninetendo 64. it was getting close to 11, and i didn't really want to be late. i remember we kept saying one more game, and nathan said we couldn't leave until he won. then he kept driving backwards on the course, making himself lose. (i think we finally left about 12:30)when was the last time that happened in your life? you had friends that would go to such lengths because they wanted to spend as much time as possible with you. we had "parties" every friday and saturday night. it didn't matter we had been together all school week. nobody ever wanted to leave. if i close my eyes and think, i can still feel their love. what have i become?
though i just did something quite scary, and i hope it was the right thing.
why do people push away those who care about them the most?
(and for those who are paying attention, this is a general statement as well as specific.)
i need to flip my mattress.
i made cookies to take to work. not much in this world can't be fixed with sugar and chocolate.
i miss my sister. i wish i could be honest with her.
i miss kerri and nathan and nick and becca and that whole crowd.
life was so much simpler then- i remember one night, kerri and i went to nathan's house. it was during the summer, and our collective curfew was 11pm, though it wasn't set in stone. we had watched a movie, and we were playing mariokart on his ninetendo 64. it was getting close to 11, and i didn't really want to be late. i remember we kept saying one more game, and nathan said we couldn't leave until he won. then he kept driving backwards on the course, making himself lose. (i think we finally left about 12:30)when was the last time that happened in your life? you had friends that would go to such lengths because they wanted to spend as much time as possible with you. we had "parties" every friday and saturday night. it didn't matter we had been together all school week. nobody ever wanted to leave. if i close my eyes and think, i can still feel their love. what have i become?
