one is silver, the other gold

so I decided to go see Dave instead of hear the Richard's concert with Jennifer. i am sure she'll make other plans.

i'm getting tired of hearing "Jennifer is a bad, bad person" from everyone even dave from work has jumped on this bandwagon. i realize that these people only care about me, and i appreciate it. and i'm willing to admit there is a possibility i am wrong. i just don't see it. no one who treats their dog the way she does could possibly be all bad. and that night i was sick, and she stroked my hair until i fell asleep, or how she would set my lunch out when i stayed over. i hear her (on the phone at work) bend over backwards for her friends, and she really worries about doing the right thing. for all her bravada of "devil may care" and tough look attitude, she is really not that way. she is also afraid of confrontation.

now i do agree that some of the things she has done relating to me are not cool. and a normal person would write her off, but i am not normal. once formed, my love for a friend is unconditional. it normally takes me a long time to trust other people (even longer to trust fully)this case just moved faster than most. i have zero success trying to do things for strictly me. i have to think of how my actions affect other people. i think i get so guilt ridden, that i can't take it. i truly believe things will get worked out. i am, at the same time, worried how this new friend could affect the old. it is no secret that jason doesn't exactly care for her after all of this, and i think dave is leaning that way also. this makes me really sad. i want to say i don't let their opinions affect me, but i would be lying. of course their opinions matter to me. i know they have my best interest at heart. i guess time will tell.

a poem, in honor of this ( make new friends )