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It's sad that band has been putting me in a funk lately. I just get down on myself. I am sad I don't get to sit with Dave and Tom. boo. I also worry about my general ability directing. I had to meet with the trumpets after rehearsal with Leigh so I didn't get to say goodbye to any of my trombone peeps. :'-(

She was nice to me today. Why am I afraid of her friendship?

Randy did something over Christmas that has really bothered me. Well, he told us about it at brunch on Sunday. He had wanted his whole family to go to the new indoor water park for their Christmas party, and his brother vetoed it. So Randy bought all his nieces and nephews messy/loud presents. Now all the kids are of the age to enjoy those things, but Rnady bought them to spite his siblings because they went against his wishes. I'm not sure what really bothers me so much, but it does.

I am trying to write more because it helps to express all the things I feel.

I am eating to spite myself. I don't need the pizza I just made- I ate so much today. I am marginally hungry though, and quite frankly, I want to eat to help this pit in my stomach.

Dave D asked me to sub for him in Euchre on Friday. I am scared to- doing new things with mostly people I am only marginally acquaintted with isn't exactly my idea of fun.

OK, I'm going to go eat my tortilla crust pizza.
gnight moon.