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May. 3rd, 2007 09:01 pmI got my haircut yesterday, it needed it.
I am really second guessing myself on this move. I'm really scared. With all the car stuff and this and everything else, I feel majorly overwhelmed. I needto find a place, hopefully within the next week so I can focus on everthing else going on.
I don't know what to do about a car next week. Dave D has offered me use of his, kinda, but I'm afriad to take him up on it. I want to rent a car, but that's 200 bucks I can't afford to spend. I'm not to asking that guy for it either. I know that's wrong, but I just can't.
I feel myself slipping into a bad place, and I don't know how to get out of it. I'd like to talk to Dave about it, but when I first brought it up he was joking around and said "you should resign your lease because you'll be a mess if you don't, and i don't want to deal with you then" i know he was joking, but it makes me hesitate to say anything.
Tomorrow I'll go look at a couple places that are very close to him. I think one of my problems is that I picked this place out all by myself- with no help, and no expectations from anyone- I feel as though if I move to OTE it will be just because of him, though it's not really- I like it over there. I should look in VicVillage/ShortNorth and Italian Village as well.
I feel guilty that I cancelled the gig for Saturday. I just didn't see it working out. I should go read some and then go to bed early.
I am really second guessing myself on this move. I'm really scared. With all the car stuff and this and everything else, I feel majorly overwhelmed. I needto find a place, hopefully within the next week so I can focus on everthing else going on.
I don't know what to do about a car next week. Dave D has offered me use of his, kinda, but I'm afriad to take him up on it. I want to rent a car, but that's 200 bucks I can't afford to spend. I'm not to asking that guy for it either. I know that's wrong, but I just can't.
I feel myself slipping into a bad place, and I don't know how to get out of it. I'd like to talk to Dave about it, but when I first brought it up he was joking around and said "you should resign your lease because you'll be a mess if you don't, and i don't want to deal with you then" i know he was joking, but it makes me hesitate to say anything.
Tomorrow I'll go look at a couple places that are very close to him. I think one of my problems is that I picked this place out all by myself- with no help, and no expectations from anyone- I feel as though if I move to OTE it will be just because of him, though it's not really- I like it over there. I should look in VicVillage/ShortNorth and Italian Village as well.
I feel guilty that I cancelled the gig for Saturday. I just didn't see it working out. I should go read some and then go to bed early.
