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time keeps on slipping
Jul. 15th, 2004 10:35 pmSo, the week moves fast.
let's see-
Tuesday- worked. came home, got ready to make dinner, then dave b. called and wanted me to eat dinner with him. So i did. it was good. watched BB5 and Amazing Race. thank God Alison and Donny got kicked off.
Wednesday-
Worked. Had a concert. it was inside an air conditioned building. I thought that was against the bylaws or something. hehe
Jennifer got in around midnight. I didn't sleep until she got in. it's the mother in me. i stayed in bed. i didn't figure she'd want to see me.
thursday- worked. she called and talked to Mary Ann and Richard. *sigh* came home, fixed dinner- kind of didn't talk to Jennifer. she ignored me. life is back to normal. Griffin is worn out. too much play time. heh oh, and my fan died. damn thing. gotta go get a new one tomorrow. oh, and the twin twist on big brother-wow. didn't see that one coming.
i am still thinking about stuff. i hate that i don't write here more often. it's more of too much to say, rather than not enough. life goes on. i'm back on the bank, watching everything else float along. except this time, i don't really care that stuff ispassing me by. i know that i'll always be near the important people, and i could care less about the rest. and i don't want this to be seen as something jennifer did. yes my interaction with her was the final straw, but this has been building since i first started interacting with people. i'm 25, and i just.... i don't have the strength or the tenacity to keep throwing myself off that cliff and banging my heart on the rocks below when the person decides i'm not good enough to have around anymore. i've had my heart handed to me on a platter one too many times. perhaps, i'll forget this lesson again sometime; it will definitely be harder and take longer to forget after this whole fiasco. there are those people who i treasure more than they can know, and i appreciate them and love them alot. so it's really not all doom and gloom.
let's see-
Tuesday- worked. came home, got ready to make dinner, then dave b. called and wanted me to eat dinner with him. So i did. it was good. watched BB5 and Amazing Race. thank God Alison and Donny got kicked off.
Wednesday-
Worked. Had a concert. it was inside an air conditioned building. I thought that was against the bylaws or something. hehe
Jennifer got in around midnight. I didn't sleep until she got in. it's the mother in me. i stayed in bed. i didn't figure she'd want to see me.
thursday- worked. she called and talked to Mary Ann and Richard. *sigh* came home, fixed dinner- kind of didn't talk to Jennifer. she ignored me. life is back to normal. Griffin is worn out. too much play time. heh oh, and my fan died. damn thing. gotta go get a new one tomorrow. oh, and the twin twist on big brother-wow. didn't see that one coming.
i am still thinking about stuff. i hate that i don't write here more often. it's more of too much to say, rather than not enough. life goes on. i'm back on the bank, watching everything else float along. except this time, i don't really care that stuff ispassing me by. i know that i'll always be near the important people, and i could care less about the rest. and i don't want this to be seen as something jennifer did. yes my interaction with her was the final straw, but this has been building since i first started interacting with people. i'm 25, and i just.... i don't have the strength or the tenacity to keep throwing myself off that cliff and banging my heart on the rocks below when the person decides i'm not good enough to have around anymore. i've had my heart handed to me on a platter one too many times. perhaps, i'll forget this lesson again sometime; it will definitely be harder and take longer to forget after this whole fiasco. there are those people who i treasure more than they can know, and i appreciate them and love them alot. so it's really not all doom and gloom.
