see michelle freak out

i am so pissed off. and terrified.

my money situation is getting worse and worse. i transferred some stuff onto a new card- which of course isn't giving me anough credit. so, basically one balance transferred fine, but they are only paying part of the other one, which doesn't help me any. i'll have to work on it more. it also looks like i'm going to have to pay the federal gov't, so.

i don't really think i've been this scared about money before. i mean, it really looks grim. i don't know what to do, and i don't even know where to start.

i want to go to bed, but i can't until i get some clothes out of the dryer. which if i hadn't had to do someone else's laundry first, mine would be done. i had to finish up the load she had in the dryer, and then, because i'm nice, i put the load she'd left in the washer in the dryer. i'm talking about the girl who lives next to me.

i'm dreading this trip to cincinnati. it's hard for me to deal with facing my failures so closely and frequently.

i wonder what's going on with the jasons'. i haven't talked with jason for awhile, and every time since new years i've mentioned to him that we get together, he's ignored my comment. i guess he's busy. or i managed to offend him and jj too. i'm pretty good at that. i suppose i realize that i'm not always sunshiny here lately: i don't know if that has anything to do with it.

i don't really have lunch stuff in the house, but i have not much money, and no time to go to the grocery. i wanted to go in the morning, but we're supposed to get snow. i dunno- i'll see. of course, since i won't be sleeping until midnight at least- it might be hard to get up early.

i'm very close to tucking my tail between my legs and running. at least i wouldn't have rent or utilities at 321 summerlee.

well, i'm going to go drink some milk and eat a fudge round. dave- the cap't morgan's is very tempting.